Tok Ayah...

Haji Ismail Bin Awang Besar.. Nama yang diberikan oleh ibu bapanya kepada beliau.. Mempunyai 7 orang anak dan 13 orang cucu.. Cicit xde lagi la sbb saya lom kawen lagi..hehe..Semua cucunya2 panggil dia TOK AYAH...

Macam mimpi ngeri je.. Ari jumaat lepas, dia dimasukkan ke wad.. Masa nak gi spital tu, dia ok lagi..leh bercakap lagi.. Asalnya demam je.. tapi rupanya2 ada internal bleeding.. Hatinya dipenuhi darah.. Fully supported wif machine to breath now..

Skrg ni keadaan dia makin critical.. Dah dimasukkan ke ICU..hurm...rasa cam xpercaya skrg ni dia terlantar di katil ICU..koma..xbuka mata since he was admitted to ward...hurm...

Sedih sgt2 bila teringat kat dia.. Skrg ni pun rasa cam nak nangis.. Seriously.. rasa air mata nak menitik.. sebelum ni, bila gi melawat dia, sy bertahan lagi drp menitis air mata.. tp bila duk sorg2 camni..bila teringat kat dia dlm suasana sunyi camni...rasa nak nangis je..kan best kalo sy leh nangis..tapi..sy kena tahan..xleh nangis..xleh nangis..

Hurm.. Tok Ayah.. Harap tok ayah sedar dari koma..Buka mata dan sembuh kembali dr penyakit tu.. seCreTo xleh kehilangan tok ayah... secreto hanya ada sorg je lagi tok ayah dlm dunia ni.. secreto xleh bayangkan kalo secreto kehilangan tok ayah.. gelak tawa tok ayah..suara2 tok ayah..masih lagi terngiang2 kat telinga ni..

Ya Allah.. Selamatkanlah dirinya..

Pada semua kawan2.. Please.. Doakan agar Tok Ayah sy sihat kembali..

p/s: nak menyendiri jap..rasa sedih sgt2..nak nangis...

That's All I Really Know...

Situation:

A father to a daughter says to his daughter's boyfriend, " Stay away from her.."

Without any words, that boy leaves them.. Walk slowly... with full of tears...

Deep inside the girl's heart, that girl says, " I'm begging u..Please don't go..Please...Please come back one day and take me away..."

Day by day..Week by week.. Month by month.. Year by year... No appearance from that boy..

The gurl becomes heart-broken.. She's still waiting for him....But until when??


If u r the boyfriend to this gurl, what will u do??




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Love Story - Taylor Swift

We were both young, when I first saw you
I close my eyes and the flashback starts
I’m standing there, on a balcony of summer air

I see the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
You say hello, little did I know…

That you were Romeo,
you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said “stay away from Juliet”
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don’t go…And I said…

Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone
I’ll be waiting, all there’s left to do is run
You’ll be the prince and I’ll be the princess,
It’s a love story, baby, just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet, because we’re dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while
Oh, Ohhh

Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter,
And my daddy said “stay away from Juliet”
But you were everything to me
I was begging you, please don’t go…
And I said

Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone
I’ll be waiting, all there’s left to do is run
You’ll be the prince and I’ll be the princess
It’s a love story, baby, just say yes

Romeo save me, they’re trying to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it’s real
Don’t be afraid, we’ll make it out of this mess
It’s a love story, baby, just say yes
Oh, Ohhh…

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town
And I said

Romeo save me, I’ve been feeling so alone
I keep waiting, for you but you never come
Is this in my head, I don’t know what to think
He kneels to the ground and pulled out a ring and said

Marry me Juliet, you’ll never have to be alone
I love you, and that’s all I really know
I talked to your dad-you’ll pick the white dress
It’s a love story, baby just say…yes…
Oh, Ohhh… Oh, Oh, Ohhh…

We were both young when I first saw you.


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I LOVE U.. That's all i REALLY know....

Kenapa?

Kenapa mesti ada perasaan suka kat seseorang?

Kenapa mesti ada perasaan sayang kat seseorang?

Kenapa mesti ada perasaan rindu kat seseorang?

Kenapa mesti malu untuk menyatakan perasaan itu untuk seseorang?

Kenapa dia tidak tahu yang ada orang sukakan diri dia?

Kenapa?

Kenapa?


Sebab kamu tu manusia..Punya hati dan perasaan.. Sedangkan binatang pun ada perasaan sayang pada anak beranak dia..apatah lagi manusia yg ada akal yg waras utk berfikir... :p






p/s:

Kenapa mesti sy kuarkan entry ni?

--Sy pun xtau kenapa...aih... --

Atok.. Moga Atok Sihat Kembali... :'(

Sejak atuk was admitted to ward on friday, sejak hari tu la sy duk ulang alik dr umah to spital KB.. his condition was unstable... kalo org biasa yg tengok, nampak macam da ok dari yg sebelum2nya.. but according to medical specialist yg merawat tu, his condition was unstable and fully supported wif the machine to breath...

till now, he is in coma for critical liver ailment and internal bleeding.... and everything happens so sudden...our whole family are just too shocked and not ready to face this unexpected things as my grandpa has been healthy...just before he was admitted to the ward because of fever..


TOk ayah,

Bertahan lah.. Kuat kan semangat untuk menghadapi kesakitan tu.. Please..Bangkit lawan penyakit tu...Moga Allah memanjangkan umurnya dan diberinya kesihatan badan.. Amin..


To my dearest friends, bloggers & readers.. Please pray for him..please..


p/s: rindu di saat tok ayah sihat... dia slalu gosok kepala sy (biasa la..budak kecit yg nakalla katakan..hehe) smbil berpesan... " belajar rajin2 tau... memandu pun kena hati2... Sebelum memandu, baca dulu ayat quran..surah ni..ayat ni..selawat byk...pastu baru la memandu...kadang2, kita da hati2, tp org lain yg cuai.." huaaa...rindunya nak dengar suara dia lagiiii..... :'(

Malam ini, sekali lagi hatiku merintih sepi...

Sunyi malam..

Ingin sekali air mata ini menitik..

Mengenangkan nasib diri..

Sampai bila harus begini..

Mungkinkah harus ku undur diri?

Meneruskan bermakna ku menyeksa hati ini..

Berhenti bermakna aku turut akan merasai kehilangannya..

Apa yang harus ku lakukan?

Aku bukanlah seorang yang kuat untuk berterusan menipu diri sendiri..

Aku bukanlah seorang yang cekal untuk menipu perasaan sendiri..

Terima kasih utk semuanya..

Terima kasih..

Pasti, suati hari nanti, akan ku undur diri..

Dari dunia ini..

Yang mengajar aku erti kehidupan..

Ku kan jauhi dari dirinya jua yg pastinya..

Bukan untuk sementara..

Tapi untuk selama2nya..

Ya Allah..

Berikanlah ku kekuatan..

Berikanlah aku keberanian..

Berikanlah aku keteguhan hati ini..

Untuk menghadapi hari-hari mendatang..

Tanpanya..

~seCreTo~

Tag 1

Malam ni terasa nak jawab tag je.. Malas nak tulis apa2.. Jum je lah layan tag.. Yg ni sy kebas dr iffa... xmintak permission pun.. main redah je sy kebas..hahaha..jum..layanss...

1 . Adakah anda suka blogging? Kenapa?
:: Suka yg teramat sgt.. Sbb dalam blog la sy meluahkan 50% kata hati sy..hehe.. ::

2 . Blog siapa yang selalu anda skodeng? Nyatakan 5.
:: Amal ::
:: Kak emie ::
:: Kak kasih ::
:: Nisa ::
:: Iffa ::
:: Azwa ::
:: Asma ::
:: Izzah ::
-eh..nak 5 ek..hehe...ala..lebih pun xpe kan..bukannya ade mandatory sentence pun..kah3..-

3 . Adakah anda menginginkan seseorang dalam hidup anda? Yang boleh menemani dan menyayangi anda sepenuh hati? Dan siapa kah orang itu?
:: Yap.. Orang tu adalah... hurm...biarlah rahsia... ::

4 . Taken or single? Mana lebih bagus?
:: Single.. xyah nak pk apa2.. ::

5 . Pernah tak cinta anda tidak dibalas?
:: Yap...macam mana org tu nak balas...sbb xpenah pun btau dia yg sy sukakan dia..huhu..so far, ktrg bestfriend je.. ::

6 . Ciri-ciri idaman gf/bf anda?Nyatakan 5.
:: Beriman - xpenah tinggal solat dan tau kewajipan sbg khalifah di muka bumi ni.. ::
:: Bertanggungjawab - leh pikul tanggungjawab sebagai suami dan bapa ::
:: Penyayang - hehe.. ::
:: Memahami ::
:: Dekat di hati sy...hahaha...bila teringat dan sebut nama dia, boleh membuatkan sy gembira.. ::
:: Tak merokok...yes3...xske org merokok.. ::

7 . Pada umur berapakah anda akan merancang untuk berkahwin?
:: Ada rezeki ada jodoh, nak kawen awal..maybe dalam 2-5 thn lagi kot..InsyaAllah.. ::

8 . Nak berapa anak?
:: Atas rezeki yg Allah kurniakan.. Kalo leh nak 5.. ::

9 . date of birth.
:: 11 Oktober 198* :: ---> bbrp ari je terpisah ngn amir..kah3...

10 . best present yg penah dpt?
:: My kodok putih... ;) ::

11 . gift yg di impikan..?
:: Seorang suami... hahahaa...galoks..yekk.. ::

12 . fav colour?
::kuning ::
:: hijau epal ::
:: purple ::

13 . fav numbers?
:: 7 ::

14 . best place yg ingin dijejaki?
:: Mekah ::

15 . rase bahagie bile…..
:: Bila...........biarlah rahsia.. ::

16 . fav movie...
:: dok ahu gop.. ::

17 . fav artist…
:: adop... ::

New Record Achieved!

HAri tu sy janji nak upload kan gambar kan? ni dia..hehe...rekod terbaru bowling sy setelah sekian lama xdpt nak pecah kan...kenapa dpt pecah rekod kali ni? hurm...maybe sebab dapat supportes kiri kanan kot..hahaha...sekumpulan lelaki yg turut sma bagi sokongan kat sy masa buat balingan tu...huaaaaaaaaa.....tenkiu sume...hehehhee... :p





nI REkoD perTama Saya.. Picture taken on 12/2/2009






Ni reKod terBaru saYa.. Picture taken on 4/5/2009..







Next targets:

1) try to achieve 17+ ... hope so...huhu...
2) try to make the ball spinning..hehehe...
3) bola hook da jadi da..yes3...
4) try utk guna spare sbaik mungkin..my worse thing is xpandai nak guna spare...pin jatuh 9, kompem yg sbijik tinggal tu xdpt gak nak jatuhkan..huaaa...
5) competition & tournament.. supposed to participate competition on 3/5/2009 but on that day was the last day for my exam..no time to practice a day before..so, i just let the competition go..maybe for the next time, there is still hope for me to participate...hope so.. :)


p/s: amir...jom lawan bowling sama2...hehehe...amacam?