Is't the End of Our Story?

I dont wanna end up my story yet.. I have to strive for it.. But sometimes, im too giving up.. I failed to handle my feeling.. Im too missing him.. Even a msg, he never ever contact me.. Am i done anything wrong?

Just few hours ago, i just found his ex's pic.. A lil bit shocked (sure?).. Even though he never told me his nightmare n his old memories before, but i knew a lil bit of it.. Im not a busy body to korek2 everything from him.. I just sometimes like a CSI (izzah yg ckp mcm CSI..kih3..)..who love to investigate what is necessary for me..

Bila tengok gambar tu.. Hurm..Dalam hati..Nak kata cemburu..Tipu lah kalo xde langsung kan.. Cuma kontrol cmtu lah..Buat cam xde pape.. Tapi dalam hati "Ya Allah..Ujian apakah ini..BErat utk aku hadapinya lagi..".. Terdetik jugak dalam hati ni.. Mungkin dia bukan untuk saya.. Tapi..xkan kerana ni saya nak give up dah..Bila tengok gambar diorang [i mean i've compared both pictures..he n that gurl..2 different pics], hurm..ade jugak lah iras2..Lain la sy ni..Jauh panggang dari api [sbbnya sy xsuke main api..hahaha]..

Apa yg patut saya buat skrg ni? Saya xnak lepaskan dia..Tapi, kadang2 sy terasa give up dengan dia.. Nak kata saya xcintakan dia, saya dah menolak orang lain kerana dia.. Dalam hati dia, saya cuma tunggu dia..Melainkan memang jodoh saya bukan dengan dia, yang tu, memang sy da xleh wat apa2 dah.. Hanya berserah pada takdir..

Usaha + tawakkal + doa = Ubat untuk saya meneruskan dugaan ini.. Moga saya terus tabah..
AmiNN~


This is not our end of story.. Even though it sounds like it comes to the end, but i'm sure, i still can go on.. I have to live on.. I have to.. Oh please~